It sure has been a while. A new year has come upon me, and am unsure what to do with it. I spent the changing of the year, in bed. Sleeping. I hope that isn't a sign of what is to come in 2004. I like to think it is more a sign that 2003 tired me out to the point that I couldn't even make it through the night! Wishful thinking.

Any regrets from 2003? I don't think so. I always like to say that I have no regrets, about anything - that life is too short for that. Which is all true. Life is too short - which was proved this past summer. A life can be taken from you just like that, with no warning or preparation. And then people become full of regret and guilt. I included. How can a year truly be good, when something of that magnitude happens? I'm not sure it can be. It is like this grey cloud constantly looming over - not completely obvious, but always there, just out of reach, but ready to show up just when things start going well.

My goals for 2004 are simple. Not to have any regrets at this time next year. Really, that means don't make any completely unforgivable mistakes that would be disasterous. I will of course make bad choices and even worse decisions, but those are a part of living. Things happen for a reason. I have given up making resolutions. One shouldn't need a specific date to want to start to change something. I believe the person who thought up New Years Resolutions was a procrastinator. It's like Valentine's Day. Why should there be one day set aside for people to tell others they love and care about them? Nonsense. That is simply a marketing ploy to make money. I'm not down with that. To me, it means little if someone tells me they love me on Valentine's Day. That is what they are supossed to do - what about the other 364 days of the year??

Thanks, but no thanks.  ¶ 8:58 PM