Inside Out...
The Reason
I want to be the one you come to when you want to run away.
I want to be the reason that you decide to stay.
I want to be there when you fail and when you try again.
I want to be your lover I want to be your friend.
I want to be beside you if ever you fall down.
I want to be the reason your feet are off the ground.
I want to be there to support you in making your dreams come true.
I want to be in your corner for everything you do.
I want to make you happy throughout each and every season.
When you fall in love I want to be the reason.
Damn You Keith Urban!
Sigh! I admit, while I remain a cynic a majority of the time, once in awhile a love song will reduce me to a quivering bottom lip personified. What really moved me about this song was how genuinely endearing and unpretentious it was. I felt that, whoever the woman he’s singing about is, it seemed like he was completely there for her. It gave me the impression that maybe she had been unhappy in the past, and he is setting things right by just understanding her and letting her know that she's loved.
I’m not proud of this, but I’ve been listening to this song a lot the last few days, swooning with thoughts like "What do I have to do to get treated like this?" and "I want someone to write me a song like that." or worse yet, "I want this song to be played at my wedding." Yes, unfortunately, I did really think this stuff. My wedding? I don’t even want to get married and this song is making me have fantasies about fictitious sensitive boyfriends and imaginary nuptials. Sigh.
Making Memories of Us
I'm gonna be here for you baby, I'll be a man of my word
Speak the language in a voice that you have never heard
I want to sleep with you forever, and I want to die in your arms
In a cabin by a meadow where the wild bees swarm.
And I'm gonna love you
Like nobody loves you,
And I'll earn your trust making memories of us.
I want to honour your mother, and I want to learn from your pa
I want to steal your attention like a bad outlaw
And I want to stand out in a crowd for you, a man among men
I want to make your world better than it's ever been.
And I'm gonna love you
Like nobody loves you,
And I'll earn your trust making memories of us.
We'll follow the rainbow
Wherever the four winds blow,
And there'll be a new day
Comin' your way.
I'm gonna be here for you from now on
This you'll know somehow
You've been stretched to the limits but it's alright now
And I'm gonna make you a promise
If there's life after this,
I'm gonna be there to meet you with a warm wet kiss.
And I'm gonna love you
Like nobody loves you
And I'll earn your trust making memories of us.
And I'm gonna love you
Like nobody loves you,
And I'll win your trust making memories of us.
Name 4 people who have most influenced your life, past or present, and why:
My kids - they make me want to be better
Zoe - makes me smile when I don't want to
My girls - they allow me to relive my love for the game
C - allows me to think and feel
Do you have anything on or near your computer monitor/desk area? Besides your mouse!
Pictures
CD rack
Mail
Candle
Four words that describe your mood right now:
Excited
Tired
Anxious
Curious
What did you like most about being a teenager? (There had to be something!)
The loves of my life.
Driving myself rather than be driven.
My friends.
THE GREATEST ADVICE
Don't date because you are desperate.
Don't marry because you are miserable.
Don't have kids because you think your genes are superior.
Don't philander because you think you are irresistible.
Don't associate with people you can't trust.
Don't cheat. Don't lie.
Don't pretend.
Don't dictate because you are smarter.
Don't demand because you are stronger.
Don't sleep around because you think you are old enough and know better.
Don't hurt your kids because loving them is harder.
Don't sell yourself, your family, or your ideals.
Don't stagnate
Don't regress.
Don't live in the past.
Time can't bring anything or anyone back.
Don't put your life on hold for possibly Mr/Mrs Right.
Don't throw your life away on absolutely Mr Wrong because your biological clock is ticking.
Learn a new skill.
Find a new friend.
Start a new career.
Sometimes, there is no race to be won.
Only a price to be paid for some of life's more hasty decisions.
To terminate your loneliness, reach out to the homeless.
To feed your nurturing instincts, care for the needy.
To fulfill your parenting fantasies, get a puppy.
Don't bring another life into this world for all the wrong reasons.
To make yourself happy, pursue your passions and be the best of what you can be.
Simplify your life.
Take away the clutter.
Get rid of destructive elements: abusive friends, nasty habits, and dangerous liaisons.
Don't abandon your responsibilities but don't overdose on duty.
Don't live life recklessly without thought andfeeling for your family.
Be true to yourself.
Don't commit when you are not ready.
Don't keep others waiting needlessly.
Go on that trip.
Don't postpone it.
Say those words.
Don't let the moment pass.
Do what you have to, even at society's scorn.
Write poetry.
Love Deeply.
Walk barefoot.
Dance with wild abandon.
Cry at the movies.
Take care of yourself.
Don't wait for someone to take care of you.
You light up your life.
You drive yourself to your destination.
No onecompletes you - except YOU.
It is true that life does not get easier with age.
It only gets more challenging.
Don't be afraid.
Don't lose your capacity to love.
Pursue your passions.
Live your dreams.
Don't lose faith in your God.
Don't grow old. Just grow YOU!
When you give someone your time,
you are giving them a portion of your life that you'll never get back.
Your time is your life.
That is why the greatest gift you can give someone is your time.
Relationships take time and effort,
and the bestway to spell love is T-I-M-E
because the essence of love is not what we think or do or provide for others,
but how much we give of ourselves
First Name: Jaime
Single or Taken: Both
Gender: Female
Birthday: September 30
Siblings: Amanda (25) John (23)
Eye color: Blue
Height: 5'7
What are you wearing right now: Navy blue pants and a red t-shirt
Righty or lefty: Righty
Can you make a dollar in change right now: nope
Relationships:
Who are your five closest friends?: Chantal, Amanda, Sergio, John
Best place to go for a date: right now - Habs playoff game!
Favorites:
Favorite place to shop: Ikea, H&M
Favorite kind of pants: jeans
Color: blue
Animal: dogs
Drink: lemonade
Sport(s): basketball
Fast-Food Place: McDonald's
Month: September
Movie: Love & Basketball
Favorite cartoon character(s): Not sure
Have you ever:
Bungeed: no
Made yourself throw-up: no
Eaten a hot dog: Yes
Put your tongue on a frozen pole? no
Loved someone so much it made you cry? Yes
Broken a bone: yes
Been in a police car: no
Been on a plane: Yes
Been in a sauna: Yes
Been in a hot tub: no
Swam in the ocean: Yes
Fallen asleep in school: Yes
Ran away? nope
Broken someone's heart?: hopefully not
Fallen off your chair: probably
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call?: probably
Saved e-mails: yes
Fallen for one of your best friends: Yes
Used someone: I imagine so
Been cheated on: yes
What is:
Your good luck charm? not sure if I have one now
Best song you ever heard: hmmmmmm
Stupidest thing you have ever done:
What's your room like: "busy"
Last thing you said: ok
What is beside you: remote control and my cell phone
Last thing you ate? frozen grapes
What kind of shampoo do you use?: Lately, Raspberry Suave
Best thing that has happened to you this year?:
Worst thing that has happened to you this year:
Have you had:
Chicken Pox: Yes
Sore Throat: Yes
Stitches: No
Staples: No
Broken Nose: No
Do You:
Believe in love at first sight: No
Like picnics: yes
Like School: Yes
Would you/what is:
Eat a live hamster for $1,000,000?: no
If you were stuck on an island, what people would you want with you? ones who could get us out!
Who was the last person that called you? my mom
Who was the last person you slow danced with: no idea
What makes you smile?: my kids, my girls
Who is the last person:
You yelled at: probably the girls
Who told you they loved you: Chantal
Who is your loudest friend?: not sure
Do you/Are You:
Do you like filling these out: if I am procrastinating
Do you wear glasses or contacts: nope
Do you like yourself: most of the time
Do you get along with your family: most of the time
Obsessive? sometimes
Compulsive? sometimes
Suicidal?: No
Love Life:
Do you have a crush? ;)
If so, do they know???? lol
What is so great about them?: everything
This or That:
Skiing or Boarding: neither
Autumn or winter: Autumn
Silver or Gold: silver
Diamond or pearls: neither
Sunset or Sunrise: Sunset
Sprite or 7up?: neither
Orange juice or apple juice: Orange
Cats or dogs: dogs
Coffee or tea?: neither
Phone or in person: In person
Youngest or oldest? oldest
Indoor or outdoor: both
Final questions:
What are you listening to right now? Savage Garden - Crash and Burn
What did you do yesterday: work, practice
Where do you want to get married? no idea
If you could change anything about yourself, what would it be? nothing
Are you a good driver?: I think so
Are you a good singer: nope
What did you dream about last night: decisions
I Do, I Do babe
All I am, all I'll be
Everything in this world
All that I'll ever need
Is in your eyes
Shining at me
When you smile I can feel
All my passion unfolding
Your hand brushes mine
And the thousand sensations
Seduce me 'cause I
I do cherish you
For the rest of my life
You don't have to think twice
I will love you still
From the depths of my soul
It's beyond my control
I've waited so long to say this to you
If you're asking do I love you this much
Well I do
In my world, before you
I lived outside my emotions
Didn't know where I was going
'Till that day I found you
How you opened my life
To a new paradise
In a world torn by change
Still with all of my heart
'Till my dying day
And I do cherish you
For the rest of my life
You don't have to think twice
I will love you still
From the depths of my soul
It's beyond my control
I've waited so long to say this to you
If you're asking do I love you this much
Yes I do
If you're asking do I love you this much
Baby I do
I'll cherish you
This much I know its true
From the depths of my soul
It's beyond my control
I've waited so long to say this to you
If you're asking do I love you this much
Baby I do
Until the very end...
I will be there.
1) Who is the last person you high-fived? Zoe - last night
2) If you were drafted into a war, would you survive? I would certainly hope so
3) Do you sleep with the TV on? Sometimes, although I set the timer first
4) Have you ever drunk milk straight out of the carton? Nope
5) Have you ever won a spelling bee? Probably - in elementary school
6) Have you ever been stung by a bee? Yes
7) How fast can you type? Pretty fast
8) Are you afraid of the dark? No
9) What color are your eyes? Blue
10) Have you ever made out at a drive-in? Never been to a drive-in
11) When is the last time you chose a bath over a shower? a few weeks ago
12) Do you knock on wood? Yes
13) Do you floss daily? No
15) Can you hula hoop? Not for very long
16) Are you good at keeping secrets? Yes
17) What do you want for Christmas? Peace on Earth
18) Do you know the Muffin Man? Nope
19) Do you talk in your sleep? Sometimes - when I have bad dreams
20) Who wrote the book of love? Is there such a thing?
21) Have you ever flown a kite? Yes
22) Do you wish on your fallen lashes? Yes
23) Do you consider yourself successful? Some days
24) How many people are on your contact list of your cell? Not sure
25) Have you ever asked for a pony? No - but my brother has promised me one
26) Plans for tomorrow? Work
27) Can you juggle? Nope
28) Missing someone now? Yes
29) When was the last time you told someone I Love You? Yesterday - to Chantal
30) And truly meant it? I always truly mean it
31) How often do you drink? Socially
32) How are you feeling today? Tired
33) What do you say too much? Nonsense
34) Have you ever been suspended or expelled from school? Nope
35) What are you looking forward to? Exam time
36) Have you ever crawled through a window? Probably
37) Have you ever eaten dog food? Nope
38) Can you handle the truth? Yes - I prefer it
39) Do you like green eggs and ham? Nope
40) Any cool scars? Nope
Why Do I Like Thee?
Because you are scared,
By the slightest whisper
Because you are jealous,
When the time doesn’t call for it
Because you are weak,
No more than a straw
Because you are indecisive,
When others are on the line
Because you are aggressive,
When those close to you are threatened
Because you are ambitious,
Despite other ends
Because you are determined,
When the walls break down
Because you are fun-loving,
In times of love-end
Because you are beautiful,
Inside and out
Because you are smart,
In heart more than mind
Because you are kind,
Even to those who aren’t
Because you are loving,
When love doesn’t love back
Because you are caring,
As God called to be
Because you are passionate,
In more ways than one
Because you understand,
What other people don’t
Because you can see,
What the eyes cannot
Because you can feel,
The same way that I do
Because you make me smile,
When I thought it was too hard
Because you are special,
To me and to others
Because you are all that,
And more for me to see
Why do I like thee?
Isn’t it obvious?
Count the number of reasons,
And you shall see…
I like thee because you are thee
I’m not in love with you…yet
But that doesn’t mean that I never will be.
I’m falling in love with you much faster than I’m used to,
Maybe too fast for me to handle, but I know that I am.
I love what we share and how we are together,
What makes us ‘soulmates’ and how we can just live laughing at anything and I just can’t let go of all that that easily.
If you, however, tell me to go away, I’ll try to, but it’ll be the hardest thing for me to do.
I want to fall in love with you YYY and I want to love you, treat you right, be there for you.
Just give me a chance, and I’ll prove it to you.
I know you’re scared, and I am too.
But as long as we’re in this together, we can do it…
I’m scared of what tomorrow might bring,
But if I face it with you, I feel like everything’s gonna be alright.
There are so many things that we don’t know,
But I want to find out those things with you.
We aren’t in love,
But I want to fall in love with you.
If you give this a chance, and we do things together,
I just know things will work out.
The Good, The Bad, and the Ugly! - A Survey of Your Life
* So Basically... *
Name?: Jaime
Age?: 28
Sex?: female
Birth Date?: September 30, 1977
Hair Color?: brown
Eye Color?: blue
Height?: 5'7
Piercings?: ears
Tattoos?: no
What are you wearing right now?: black track pants and a white t-shirt
Hair style at the moment?: up
* Favorites *
Soda?: Coke
Food?: souvlaki
Drink?: lemonade
Alcoholic Drink?: Ameretto Sour
Time of day?: mid-evening
Season?: summer
Day of the week?: tomorrow
Song at the moment?: Better Days by Goo Goo Dolls
Band/Artist?: several
Book?: Catcher in the Rye
Subject in school?: Math - lol
Place in the USA?: don't have one
Place outside the USA?: Canada
Color?: blue
Style of clothes?: comfortable
Store?: Jacob
Mall?: Fairview
City?: Montreal
Website?: card sites
Magazine?: Cosmo
Kind of pet?: dog
* Worst *
Place to be?: doctor
Class in school?: Physics
Time of day?: early morning
Season?: winter
Kind of pet?: lizard
Drink?: root beer
Food?: mushrooms
Mall?: none
Store?: none
Style of clothes?: tights
Celebrity?: not sure
Color?: anything super bright
Book?: not sure
Type of music?: something loud
Website?: not sure
Magazine?: tabloid crap
* Daily Life *
When do you get up?: too early
What is your first thought?: need sleep
What do you do first?: press snooze
What's your usual outfit?: depends on where I am going
What's the first class of the day?: depends on the day
When does school end?: 3:15pm
Do you see your friends?: not at school
What do you do when you get home?: depends on if I have practice/games after school
What time do you go to bed?: late
* Do you...*:
Brush your teeth daily?: yes
Brush your hair daily?: yes
Shower daily?: usually
Sing?: sometimes
Dance?: not really
Party?: not really
Get drunk?: not really
Read books?: yes
Listening to music a lot?: yes
Read magazines?: not so much
Go online a lot?: yes
Stay on AIM all day even with an away message?: sometimes
Have a religion?: no
Have an IPod?: IPod Shuffle
Want an IPod?: yes
Have a Girlfriend/Boyfriend?: several
Play an instrument?: no
Get sick a lot?: this year has been bad
Watch TV?: some
Like MTV?: not really
Like VH1?: not really
Like the History Channel?: no
Have Digital Cable?: no
Have more than 500 channels on your TV?: no
Listen to the radio?: only in the car
Still use your CD player?: yes
Stalk people?: not so much
Have more than 200 buddies on your Buddy List?: no
Have dial-up internet?: no
Have AOL?: no
Know HTML?: some
Have a GPA higher than 3.9?: no idea
Get H's in honors classes?: ???? H?
* Music *
Do you listen to Rap?: yes
R & B?: yes
Blues and/or Jazz?: no
Classical?: no
Pop?: yes
Country?: yes
Emo/Scremo?: no
Heavy Metal?: no
Christian?: no
Techno?: no
Reggae?: yes
Broadway Musical songs?: yes
Oldies?: yes
* In A Boyfriend/Girlfriend *
Hair color?: no preference
Eye color?: no preference
Tattoos?: no preference
Piercings?: no preference
Favorite Music?: whatever they like works for me
Style of clothing?: casual but sharp
Body Type?: tall
Personality or Looks?: both
Would you go out with someone just for their money?: no
Do you go on "Pity Dates"?: no
Does size matter?: lol
Do they have to be popular?: by who's standards? besides, if I like them they are popular!
Does the guy ask the girl or the other way around?: can go either way
Where do you go on the first date?: depends
Kiss on the first date?: sure
Sex on the first date?: no
* Right Now *
Do you think you look good right now?: no I feel like ass, so I must look even worse!
Are you eating something?: no
Are you drinking something?: water
Are you IMing anyone?: yes - one of my girls
Are you talking on the phone with someone?: no
Are you talking face to face with someone?: no
Is anyone at your house who doesn't live there?: no
What song are you listening to?: Hips don't lie - Wyclef and Shakira
What are you watching on TV?: yes
What other websites do you have open?: none
Why are you taking this survey?: procrastinating
Where are you going to post it?: not sure yet
What are you going to do after this?: report cards???
* What do you Believe? *
Do you believe in ghosts?: yes
The afterlife?: no
Aliens?: no
God?: no
The devil?: no
Heaven?: no
Hell?: no
Scientology?: no
Hinduism?: sure
Buddhism?: sure
Christianity?: sure
Taoism?: sure
Judism?: sure
Jesus?: no
Nothing?: sure
Reincarnation?: no
Yourself?: for some things
* Randoms *
Have you been on an airplane before?: yes
Where were you going?: vacation
Have you been to another country?: yes
Have you ever went to another country with your friends?: yes
Have you ever partied in another country?: yes
Have you ever went on a roadtrip with your friends?: yes
Ever stayed online more than 10 hours straight?: I would imagine so
Pretended to like someone just to get popular?: no
Talked about someone behind their back?: yes
Had someone talk about you behind your back?: more than likely
Been in a fight online?: yes
Been in a fight face to face?: yes
Gotten yourself involved in a fight that wasn't about you?: yes
Been called a bitch?: probably
Been called a slut/whore?: probably
Been to Australia?: no
Do you like snakes?: no
Ever cried to get your own way?: probably as a kid
Ever broken a bone?: yes
Ever had to stay in the hospital for more than a week?: no
Ever had serious surgery?: no
Ever looked a porn online?: sure
Ever went to one of those "adult" stores?: yes
Ever bought clothes at Walmart?: yes
Ever gotten clothes from the Salvation Army?: no
Ever paid more than 100 dollars for a pair of jeans?: no
Ever been on stage for any reason?: yes
Ever been in a play?: no
Ever been in a choir?: yes - in elementary school
Ever been in a band?: no
Do you play, or used to play, an instrument?: in High School
Gotten a Brazilian Bikini Wax?: good lord no
Cut yourself shaving?: yes
What time is it right now?: 9:18pm
In My Heart ~~~~
You don't have to be perfect
To belong in this place
You don't have to have all the answers,
Or always know the right thing to say
You can climb the highest mountain, if you want
Or quietly imagine that you might, someday
You can take chances or take safety nets,
Make miracles or make mistakes
You don't have to be composed at all hours to be strong here.
You don't have to be bold or certain to be brave
You don't have to have all the answers here,
Or even know who you want to be.
Just take my hand
And rest your heart
And stay awhile with me
