Had a dream today...or perhaps it was my alter reality...either way, it was a nice escape from this dreary weather, and tired state I find myself in.

This thought has never occured to me before, but I think that there is almost nothing sexier than a man chopping wood. And it makes no difference to me whether it is winter and he is wearing layers, or if it is in the summer and he has a wife beater on. Sigh... And I never thought this until this scenerio that I have in my head. I think I would like to go to a ski lodge - and not ski. Do people do that? Go there for the atmosphere and not for the activity?

I have been having the desire to go and "play" in the snow. Not sure why, considering it has been bone chilling cold out there, but I guess I am longing for someone to do that with. Someone I can be silly like that with. I have had those people in the past, I have done that in the past - and I wish for it again. I wish for a lot of things again. Why is that?

I finally get my life to the point I want it to be - and I am looking backwards and hoping for all of that jazz again. I have issues.

Another thought occured to me today. Movies are fake. DUH! I know they are, but when you are transfromed from your life into another relam, you forget that, and it occured to me, after watching Out of Time (Denzel = yummy!), that none of that is real. The scenes aren't real. The lines aren't real. The emotions being portrayed aren't real. So why do we watch these movies? Why do we send dollar after dollar and hour after hour watching them? Do we all really have shitty lives that we need to escape for a few hours?

Hmmm.
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