Inconsistencies

I struggle with my inconsistencies
I plan my start
and maybe even start my plan
but then my plan gets somehow lost
in the fuss
of planning another start
and even starting another plan

I struggle with my inconsistencies
I do what I want and I want what I do
until what I do becomes what I don't
and I no longer want what I do
and I want what I do not do
until I do what I did not
and what I now do
becomes what I don't

I struggle with my inconsistencies
I love what I am and I am what I love
until my love becomes what I am not
and I love something else
and I become the something else I love

I struggle with my inconsistencies
and I struggle to become consistent
so much so that now I've come to know
my greatest consistency
lies in my inconsistency  ¶ 7:30 PM