letting go

it's hard to let go
of the first time i saw you
for my life's been defined
by "before" and "since then"

it's hard to let go
of your very first words to me
they seemed to begin
what i thought had no end

it's hard to let go
of the first time our lips touched
because each kiss that followed
became a new first

it's hard to let go
of the laughter i shared with you
how we played just like children
how we quenched our own thirst

it's hard to let go
of the first time i lay with you
we discovered shared colors
learned to dance our own tune

it's hard to let go
of the hopes that i held for us
the world we created
our own private cocoon

it's hard to let go
but you're nowhere to be found now
and the pain of holding onto
exceeds that of letting go  ¶ 8:06 PM