So, I have been finding myself thinking a lot about the past as of late. Perhaps it is that time of year, perhaps it is because I was asked to "sign" some of my kids' yearbooks - which lead me to think about things they would remember - things that were between only us.

I find myself thinking back to my high school days - mostly grade 10 and 11. To the people I held close, and to those I held even closer. And even to those I wish I had held closer. I made a lot of mistakes back then. I was super shy. Super reserved. Super closed off. I guess not much has really changed. But I like to think I know better now.

And yet - I am still shut off to the possibilities of what could happen, and I have become impatient. I was never impatient when it came to people and relationships... and suddenly I need things now, and am out of sorts when people don't react the way I expect them to. Or maybe the way I want them to.

But, things work out as they should. I know that. It just is hard sometimes.  ¶ 8:27 PM